Look at the stars, look how they shine for you

Dear you,
It's 3 minutes to 12pm on a Wednesday night. Tomorrow is 7th January, which means a week has passed since new year. Today was fairly hot, but the heat was tolerable. I went for a jog just now- wanted to get some fresh air. I am just too tired of facing these four walls for god-knows-how-long. I wonder how's the weather in Canada, I'm pretty sure it wouldn't be as hot as it is here, and I'm surely going to miss the sun.
I'm listening to Beatles, I know classics! And also I'm watching Greta, the one by Hillary Duff. She's not anorexic in the movie and she looks pretty! It's a good movie, wonder whether they have it on DVD yet.
I can go on and on talking and crapping on how well my day goes, but you sure know it's never complete without you.

I just want you to know that I run away from you sometimes because I just want to know if you'll follow. 
In case you miss me today.


Love always,
E

Aku dan Dirimu

Lunch-ed with Azim today. It was spontaneous and I was late :))) He wanted to watch Mualaf (apparently it was SUPERB and he cried twice in the cinema) again, but instead we sat and talked for hours. As usual, we were debating about God and religion and inner-self, split personality, 1Malaysia and sexuality wtf you named it. I just found out that Marilyn Monroe was a size 16! 

Met loads of racist people, when they saw Cina girl with Melayu dude, they gave the WTH stare. Way to go, 1 Malaysia. :D

P/s Suba & Mal, noticed the green highlights? Put the blame on my webcam if you don't, or that you're just color blind. :)

They can never have yesterday

Feeling very melancholic today, my hair is now flaming red with green tips. I look like one high school dropped out who is probably high on weed. I feel lonely, trapped in this empty house of four walls with no one to talk to but listening to songs which I hate. And my stomach hurts, this pain is unbearable. Sorry for the adjectives, they sounded repulsive to me too. What a way to kick start a brand new year. Words are flowing out so slowly, I don't know what's the next thing I'm supposed to say. 

I hate to wake up in the morning tomorrow, knowing that there will be a day lesser to be spent here, the place where I call home. Maybe I am just not ready to let go of everything yet.

 

Happy Birthday to me.  

The pieces don't fit anymore.

Here I am again, sitting in front of my laptop, stoning, while editing some pictures. It's 1.14 am and my ITunes is blasting out Kelly Clarkson's Just Missed the Train. (Sorry, this was drafted yesterday, hence the time :D)

I got lucky in 2009, I have to admit, many good things happened last year. I was blessed to know what something truly means to me.I knew that everyone was proud of me, but I am, still not sure whether I was really proud of myself. The whole year has made me realize how important to stay true to myself and not being easily influenced by so-called friends around me in order to get accepted. Somehow, I believed it was a blessing in disguise, I know who my real friends are. I was once naive, believed in everything I was told to believe, but I grew from there, I grew from time and tears that I've shed.

As for love, I've grown to know what's more than just truly loving someone and something but yet to define that word for myself. Maybe it is undefinable for me and all I really know is to see things differently now that I'm old enough to think what's best for me. The keyword is to be happy always :)

Cheers to 2010, hell yes to a better kick ass year!

If i were.

• If I were a month, I’d be December.
• If I were a day of the week, I’d be Friday
• If I were a time of day, I’d be 5.50am.
• If I were a planet, I’d be Sun.
  
• If I were a sea animal, I’d be a mermaid? lol.
  
• If I were a direction, I’d be North.
  
• If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a chandelier. lol.
  
• If I were a historical figure, I’d be the one standing next to Abraham Lincoln.
  
• If I were a liquid, I’d be mucus.
• If I were a gemstone, I’d be Topaz.
  
• If I were a tree, I’d be a mango tree.
  
• If I were a tool, I’d be a hammer.
• If I were a flower, I’d be a daisy
• If I were a kind of weather, I’d be summer.
  
• If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a piano.
  
• If I were a color, I’d be red.
  
• If I were an emotion, I’d be winks.
  
• If I were a fruit, I’d be honeydew.
  
• If I were a sound, I’d be ocean waves.
• If I were an element, I’d be Potassium coz it's the highest in the Electrochemical Series :)
  
• If I were a car, I’d be a red, sexy VW Beetle.
  
• If I were a food, I’d be tosai. lol.
• If I were a place, I’d be heaven.
  
• If I were a material, I’d be silk.
  
• If I were a taste, I’d be minty.
  
• If I were a scent, I’d be sultry.
  
• If I were an object, I’d be weighing machine.
• If I were a body part, I’d be legs.
  
• If I were a facial expression, I’d be a pout.
  
• If I were a song, I’d be the Alphabet song :)
  
• If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be sneakers.